5/16/10

Hanging on the boat. It is cold today. Handsome is working on stuff. I've been reading St. John Chrysostom On Marriage. . . It's a lot more for men than wives. It's all bugging me today. Never going to have the relationship I had dreamed of. Can I be happy settling? Does it even matter if I'm happy? According to what I read today, it's not my job to love him, just obey him. And respect him but that one is next to impossible after what he's done.