admit that something scares you...

I am afraid. I am afraid that this will never go away. I am afraid that it is not possible to forgive and that I have to leave my husband. It's not fair that he put me in this position. He wasn't the only one that felt that we didn't have a perfect marriage. I tried to make it work. I went to counseling, not him. I didn't give up on us. He did. I don't care how horrible he may think I was to him, I didn't deserve what he did. I have always been able to forgive everyone everything. If I can't forgive this, what does that say about me? My faith?