Long time...

Wow, it has been a long time since I have written anything. Many things are different and many things are still the same.

I woke up this morning in a new house. We moved, yes, the whole family, in December. We just moved next door. An opportunity came up that the rent on the 3 bedroom next door was $1000 less than what we were paying on the condo. I was tired of struggling to buy food and we decided that moving would be the best decision. I must confess, at the time, I was thinking it would make the divorce a lot more simple if there were no assets to be divided.

We spent 3 months and $2500 fixing the place so that it is livable. We have all 3 enjoyed the new place immensely. We left, for the most part, the bad memories we all had in the old place.

I still have my moments of severe doubt, but Handsome and I seem to be doing okay. He has calmed down so much. I know I've said this before, but I think, just maybe, he may have finally managed to evict the demons that have taken over his brain.

My trip around the country was awesome and I think it really hit home to him what it would be like to not have me with him. I am still far from over it all. 8 years + of betrayal is hard to erase in only a year, but we're working at it.

I still don't feel any love towards him, or any other person, in my heart. But my brain feels the love. It is a weird sensation.

My job is still amazing and the staff here are happy to have me. I really enjoy my job. Wish it were a little later in the day, sometimes, though.

I am preparing for the biggest audition ever in my life. A last minute decision to sign up to audition for the Voice on Saturday has me scrambling to try to learn 2 songs and make theme amazing. What's the worst that could happen? "Thank you" is all I hear? I think I'll survive and try again another time.

And of course, my Handsome has managed to land himself under investigation again. So much for promoting. I think the department did it on purpose so that they have an excuse to keep him down. They so much do not know what they are missing. Then again, they are too stupid to care. If he stays any longer than he has to in order to retire, I may just throw the most ginormous fit ever. That place has been poison to our souls.

At least he gets the day to work on my boat... another divorce escape that I have pushed us into, but it is nice.

Anyway, better go do some work!