10/23/10

Seriously, 14 years of emotional abuse is more than anyone should have to endure. I can't keep living this way. There just aren't enough meds in the world to make this bearable. I swear the day the doctor tells me I only have 3 months to live will be the happiest day of my whole fuckin life! I'm glad I didn't have kids now. How could I inflict the pain of this world on another person? I had a brief moment of peace when we took the boat out in the sun around the harbor. I find it very hard to trust in God as long as I am where I am.