channel anger

I'm in this weird state of limbo that I am oddly enjoying. On Saturday, I begged and begged and begged and begged God to take away this pain. My argument that 6 years was long enough and how could I possibly be a good ambassador for Him if I was always bitter and angry. It's only been 4 days, and I've had these lulls before, but I have a feeling that this one just might stick. I want to do God's will. I want to be good at the things that I need to do. I can't do that the way that I've been feeling for so long. God answers prayers. Now my prayer is that I don't miss the pain enough to make it come back. I grew accustomed to feeling sad. But I like not hurting much more.