stress journal

Went to use the computer this morning and no internet. So I started setting up the new DSLExtreme modem. Got to step 1b and realized we have to buy a router. Then I called AT&T and the service had already been cancelled. I have spent 2:20 minutes on the phone trying to get this thing working. Finally working, but we have to sit plugged in, a minor inconvenience I suppose. But I can feel the stress and it surfaces memories and thoughts that I don't want to deal with about him. Why couldn't he just have loved me? Whatever. I suppose my broken heart has made me closer to God than perhaps I have ever been. I guess in that sense, I should almost be grateful for him almost literally driving me insane.